kabhi kabhi zindagi ki bohut sari baaton se insan thak jata hai aur dil karta hai k bas yeh cheezen aaj k baad na hon. ek ajeeb kisam ka circle hota hai jisko har haal mein torne ki khwahish dil mein paisa hoti hai. majusi ghussa aur thakkahn ki surat mein insaan kaye aur naye kisam k tajarbu hasil karne ki koshish karta hai. yakenanan mein bar bar aisi baaton ka intekhab karti hun jin baaton ka hal kayi log dhundh bhi lete hain lekin meri trah aaj bhi un baaton ka swal dhundhte hain. kya zindagi ise kehte hain?? mein to aaj bhi kehti hun k meine umeed chor di lekin kabhi kabhi to itna dimagh khrab hota hai k man karta hai k cheekhti rahun chilati rahun k akhir meri koi awaz q nahi sunta... phir khamosh ho jati hun. abhi kuch din pehle ki baat hai kahin gayi thi mein wahan jan se pehle hi man mein ek jaeeb qisam ki krvahat thi lekin meine bhi behas na ka aur khamoshi se gari mein baith gayi. wahan ja k pata chala k nahi jana chahiye tha. jana kahan tha... rishtedar... goli vajje... kafi arse se meine ek fesal kar rakha hai aur elan bhi kar chuki hun lekin ajeeb baat hai is fesle mein koi taqat nahi. sharike hayat ka kehna hai k sab ko nahi chora jata maa kehti hai samjhati dhukh bant leti hai khamosh ho jati hai... aur mein bhi
bas yahi soch kar khamosh ho jati hun k dunya mein meri trah kuch bebas log rehte hain. dil mein dukh liye phirte hain lekin chehre par phir bhi umeed k chalo sab thik hoga. lekin mere mamle mein kuch aur hai... khair...
aaj kal ek naya bhoot swar hai mere dimagh mein. naya ghar lena hai kisi dusri jagha par jana hai. naye ghar sajen k khwab sajati hun roz in ankhon mein magar phir sochti hun k iski chaabi bhi pata nahi kab milegi. ya shayed zindagi ek hi jagha ruk jayega. apne sharike hayat ki taraf dekti hun to sakoon milta hai. aaj kal woh khush hai. hum log kafi arse se ek nayi zindagi ki taraf rojun kar rahe hain. meine kuch fesle kar rakhe hain aur sochti hun k ab in par qaym reh lun. lekin takat ab bhi nahi hai mujh mein. dekhte hain zindagi akhir kis mor par la kar khara kar deti hai...
magar ek baat is khopri mein baith gayi hai k jitna zulm mehsoos karti thi mein khud se utna zulm kabhi tha hi nahi. bas ek ajeen kisam ka fatoor tha dimagh mein janam leta hua. shayed in sab cheezon ko adat ho gayi hai aur meine sochna bhi kam kar diya hai k baaz heezen aur insaan kabhi badalne k liye nahi bani...
